There is always that point in your life when you have to swallow something
you said or eat up a principle you once took pride on. I do a handful
of positivity-infused posts every now and then. And sometimes I can't
help but doubt whether the writer who wrote them had any sense at all
of what she's saying at the time. The world is pretty messed up
sometimes (considering we just came out from an election that many of
us once again dubbed highly susceptible to fraud and a melting pot of
errors). And with just 18 years of existence to back up all the
goody-two shoes Paulo Coelho-wannabe type of pieces that I write, it
is quite plausible that there will be times when I want to take back
some of the things that slipped my tongue(or keyboard rather) and
ended up being blogged only to be regretted after. My friends say I'm
a real jolly fella, that I spark laughter and good companionship in
everywhere I go. Then again, maybe it's just a defense mechanism.
Maybe it's just that some things are just too embarrassing or
degrading to admit even to your own self that you settle for just
laughing it all of and “looking at the bright side”. What if that
bright side is a long, long way down the road? What are you going to
do then? It is instinct to cover up and hide weakness. But then, it
is also inevitable to feel one. As of writing time, I am pulling my
hair, thinking why some things didn't go my way- all childlike, yes.
There will be a peak to everything. There will always be hiatus. Even
the funniest of comedians could also be a sad sap.
Maybe
a little teenage angst is cool after all. :D
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