Hello Cold World

Below is a perfectly good reason why I would like to punch the heck out of my 14 year old self. Take note of the pathetic rhyming scheme, the elementary-level word choices as well as the obvious attempt to rant biographical accounts of high school scenes.

#throw-up #now

Our Fate: Together at the end or Apart forever

I never thought we would end up like this

the chemistry we once had was incomparable

now, we're like two diff'rent strangers

the pain is unbearable

My days were always alive whenever

my eyes would mingle with yours in the crowd

but all was just a silly illusion

and I just had my head in the clouds

This heart of mine had never felt

this deep anger and longing before

you broke it into a million tiny pieces

but I knew I still loved you more

I know it's my fault cause I was weak and stupid

I didn't have the courage that I left things unsaid

but didn't my actions yell louder than my words

than to lose you, I'd rather be dead

Misery and depression had come full circle

targets were aimed right through my heart

I'm losing my mind while guessing our fate

An ending together or a forever apart

Our love story went on like this

a great big confession in an empty hallway

memories of our short past friendship flooded me

that I couldn't answer right away

I wasn't so sure of my feelings

even if you were convincing right there

you made an awful lot of promises to wait

and I held on to them, I swear

It didn't take me quite long to see

that promises don't always last

you quickly found another deal

you burned my hopes to ash

But karma has a way of getting back

for you showed up one day crying and broken

I knew you deserved that kind of torture

but I couldn't let my concern stay hidden

As days passed by I knew I've already fallen

the heartbeat is real and the impulse is strong

I feared that you'll just play me like you did before

so I haven't even told you: I love you, we belong

I guess I've learned my lesson

I love yous are sometimes untrue

love can sometimes be brutal and cold

love can do stuff to you

Romance isn't always dinner dates and sunsets

it's not just sweet text messages too

next time I won't be so easy to fall

next time I'd know what to do

Last dances may prove to be divine

it can make you feel like the princess you dreamed to be

but there's also the concept of tragic endings

when you and your true love can't be

I knew I had to go my way

I couldn't risk another heartbreak

I couldn't keep pretending like all's fine

these tears I could not fake

so I say to you O' knight in shining jersey

I'm devastated you're not my prince

the future shouts a forever apart

so I'll blow my last goodbye kiss