Sunday, 7 April 2013

The One Book I Met While Heartbroken


 THIS IS A STORY ABOUT A MAN named Eddie and it begins at the
end, with Eddie dying in the sun. It might seem strange to start a story
with an ending. But all endings are also beginnings. We just don't know
it at the time.                                                                                      
                                                           - The Five People You Meet in Heaven
                                                                               by Mitch Albom




Since summer time has made itself at home here in the country and summer classes, as I have found out, cost an arm and a leg- and probably some other internal organs as well- I have decided to make these two months of vacation as productive as I possibly can. That means looking for work, indulging on books, practicing my writing, catching up on forgotten passions (music and dance), and eating healthy to my heart's content- I just hope it's disciplined enough to lay off the bacon and sweets just for 8 weeks. Anyhow, like always, I made it a point to stick to a schedule. My OC self would always take over at times like these when the temptation of doing nothing and being nothing tries to stage an attack. I wrote down everything I needed to do for the summer in an old notebook and crossed my fingers, hoping each one written there would push through. It didn't.



I was applying for my school's official publication. Every aspiring writer's dream- to have his name printed in a newspaper even before he gets his diploma. I was one of them, ofcourse. But as easily as fate conspires to have dreams reached, odds can be against it. Just when I was one step closer to the position, I felt the weight of rejection drag me down. In a matter of hours, I got the depressing news. I didn't know what was worse- knowing I failed or knowing I failed without knowing why. In a cruel twist of irony, I received the news moments after positively relating how I did in the interview to my mom and dad. I went up to my room thinking I made them proud. I went down again taking it all back. It's moments like this when I question the dignity of my optimism. I notice I do a lot of positive-filled posts and saintly encouragements; I wonder if after spending more years in the adult world, would I change this kind of thinking? Would I turn into those lonely men and women who feel stuck and unhappy, rotting in the cycle of making a living instead of actually living? Uggghhh! Whatever. That's still a long way down the road. What's important is now. And now I feel like having a bucket of fried chicken and some Ben&Jerry's while at it. Maybe listen to some Alicia Keys to have my swagger back, I don't know.



Recently, I downloaded a bunch of pdf files of books that I longed to read. I chose to read The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom, thinking another Paulo Coelho-like magic might work on a tragedy-struck girl like moi. And I was right in my choice. I was debating on whether to pick up an Emily Griffin book versus that and I'm really glad I chose the latter. After the introductory paragraph, I though to myself “Dear, God: Where has this fine piece of literature been all my life?”. It was that helpful. This is no book review post so I'll make the spoiling quick, okay. The story centers on a man named Eddie and his journey to five places in heaven wherein he meets five people who have impacted his life in some way. In each place in heaven, he learns a lesson from one person and at the end received a better understanding of his life on earth. The messages involved life having no random acts, sacrifice, forgiveness, lost loves and purposes. The entire plot and concept was magical. I was crying half-way through the book. Even the dedication part hit me. In a course of one day, I felt better. The book took me back to the interview itself when I was asked. “Would you commit a Kristel Tejada, if you don't get in,” they said in Tagalog. I didn't know why I answered right away, “no sir, masaya pong mabuhay.” Now, I think I know.





(P.S I'm a badass, I still have my back-up plans. Sorry, setbacks. Better luck next time. I have loads of legendary things to do.)

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